Sexual Abuse And Violence

Rumor has it the ice cream man is a drug dealer!
I was only repeating what the older kids on the block had said.

I remember my oldest sister love to sew, I was seven and she made this beautiful dress. She didn’t even wash it, I just put on and went outside to play.

Now being only seven years old I had no clue what the word "drugs" meant.

"The older kids included my two sisters and a brother". I heard them talking about the ice cream man, and that he sold drugs out of his ice cream truck to the kids on the block, my sister was very mad so I knew it was something bad.

Later that day we all went home, my Dad was sitting on the couch and I went to him and told him about the ice cream man. He flew into a rage and started pounding me with his fists "I was a bad girl for repeating those words" why? Til this day I really don’t know. He didn’t like the smell of my newly made dress ( it reminded him of being in Japan). It took both of my sister’s to get him away from me, but not before he ripped my new dress that I loved so much.

When I think back now, many times he would rip clothes off my body. I remember one time he didn’t like a shirt I had on and I refused to change, I was 5 or 6..I went running to my room and he came after and just ripped it of me. I can’t help but wonder if he got some sort of sexual pleasure from this. Violence and sexual abuse went hand in hand with my father.

Many of us, me , Violet, have been subjected to violence and sexual abuse. So when the perverts at Boy chat /Girl chat call sexual abuse "love", I have a real problem with that, sexual abuse is never about love and it is always forced one way or another..

Meet Harold Spurling ~ Aztram

Harold Spurling aka Aztram is a long time member of BoyChat. He is a pedophile. He is an activist. He is despicable.

Harold likes little boys you see. He says that his age of attraction is 4 to 9 years old but he's also discussed his attractions to much younger boys. He and Jim Finn had a long standing feud over the toddler pictures Harold collected.

He holds to a theory he refers to as the "Ticking Time Bomb" theory, in which he believes that anti-pedophile persons and child advocates actually want pedophiles to rape and molest children, just so they can say "I told you so".

Let's look closer at Aztram and see how he views children

"My drug *IS* boys. Sniffing a boy's silken hair makes me higher than any calibre of cocaine; the touch of his skin bringing me a euphoria millions of times beyond that which the finest hashish can invoke; kissing his lips making me lose myself totally ... death of the ego, annihilation of self ... at one with sweet, sweet quintessence of that youth the eternity of that youth the happiness the love the oneness fuck drugs they fail where boys fulfill ..."

And to really understand Aztram, let's take a look at one of his poems. This one is called Little Boy

Little boy,
Pull me inside
The sweet dream that is you.
Let me hold you;
Let me breathe you in.
You justify my beating heart.
With you, the world and its endless troubles
Ceases to exist ...
Paradise doesn't hold a candle
To you.
Sweet expression of perfection;
Infantile bliss.
You run through my veins,
My lifeblood.

Little boy
Silken dream
Open your eyes - I peer into
Your soul.
I lose myself
And become you ...
Fulfilling love's ultimate objective.
Unity.
Thus with you
I'm a little boy again.

Please visit Wikisposure for the full story of
Harold Spurling AKA Aztram

Graphics courtesy of Jacey

Don’t Call Me A “Professional Victim"

Til you have walked in my shoes. I am a Thriver, like so many other’s. We have muddled thru the pain to get to that other side in hope of some peace. I don’t wake up in the morning with a dose of meds, I thrive each day with a clear head!

Don’t call me a liar, my words are the truth, who would make this up? Who would want a lifetime of pain and fear? I didn’t “ask” for this! I didn’t “ask” for nightmares, body memories and in my late 20's have weeks of suffering while trying to “get over” a memory! AND I did this without meds, while trying to keep it together for my then small babies. That’s a thriver!

NOT A “Professional Victim”

Like so many survivors I was robbed of my childhood. We have had our souls die, robbed of my innocence, robbed of my right to just be a child. Robbed of really feeling loved, not used and then discarded. ”LOVE” is not being sexually abused by someone who is just getting their rocks off!

I, like Violet suffered sexual abuse, physical abuse, mental abuse and verbal abuse at the hands of my dear ole Dad, which is pretty much the case for most of us, and while growing up I always wished I had been born in another family!

So when I’m called a pedo basher, a terrorist, a liar, just remember it’s people like you who made me! Now I will fight to stop you. It’s my right!

The "Professional Victim" speaks...

For months now I have read different forums that accuse me of being a professional victim.
I guess that means that I am "professionally" a victim? A victim who is a professional?
Perhaps a Professor who is a victim?

However you want to word it .. it comes out to sound that I am being slighted as a respectable person because I claim to have been abused as a child.

Odd that only pedophiles and sex offenders will say that about me. Odd that only a perverted sick mind would dismiss my claims and automatically call me a liar.

I guess hmmmm... would a "true sexual abuse survivor" stand up to people that wish to do the same to more children?
I suppose they wish that I was too poor and struggling to have a internet connection.
Or maybe if I were too selfish to care.

How ever I became involved in this fight against pedophile destroyers cannot be true.. now can it?

Isn't that the carrot calling the apple orange?

The fact is that I am a professional victim. But not by choice.

I have all the experience of not only sexual abuse, but physical abuse, mental abuse and verbal abuse.
My experience alone is more than 4 years of college!
With a degree in abandonment and I could write my Thesis on *The Up's and down's of an unwanted child*
My profession: "Victimology". I could open a clinic, and treat other abuse survivors to become *professional victims* meaning survivors with an attitude ... thus= Thrivers.

Yes Thrivers.. like me and Brd, and a whole lot of other people out there.

One big problem I have is that I feel worthless.
I could have all these degrees and certificates.. but I'd still
feel worthless.

Children who were abused often feel worthless and its a feeling that doesn't fix itself. If I feel this way.. there must be a million other's out there
that share these same feelings. The formally abused are a forgotten bunch...BUT not anymore! We won't forget about you, like most of society has.

The US Federal Government has disability payments of around $600.00 a month. Could be a little higher but it is under $700.00 a month last I knew. In order to get these payments one must be sick mentally or physically and meet other requirements. The federal government thinks disabled people are worthless obviously when they give more to other countries and tax breaks to billionaires yet these most innocent people suffer month to month, living in poverty, some in filth and in low income properties, surrounded by drugs, alcohol and violence.

Think about that for a minute. Some are survivors of childhood abuse and they are incapable of taking care of themselves because of another human being's sexual lust..or violence this person suffers forever. And he is considered lucky because so many survivors never get any help of any kind! And therefore end up never breaking the cycle and on and on it goes!

We can help each other through this by demanding that our government take care of it's own people and become a sounding voice against child predators and child molesting pedophiles and monsters.

We can fight for truth by exposing the lies pedophiles would have society believe.

We can heal each other.

We cannot let the child victims be silenced nor forgotten anymore!

My successes in life come from hard work, many sacrifices and much suffering.
No, I am not poor or living in poverty, not on government money, nor food benefits. Its not about money, fame or reputation for me.
Its not even about if you agree.
Its about what I know and what I have seen.
Its about what BRD knows and what she has seen.

We are witnesses of the most horrible kind because not only do we have the knowledge of how pedophiles and child molesters are~ but we also have an added bonus:
Attitude!

Truth, Justice, Honor

We've talked a lot lately about sex offender activists, both the offenders themselves and the family members who enable them.

The Blame Gamers we call them.

But now let's look at some people who aren't sex offenders or family members of sex offenders. People who attempt to further their cause with seemingly no motive to do so. I'd like to know who they are. I'd like to know why their compassion and empathy is directed towards people who harm others and why they blame those who are the victims.

Let's talk about the case of the judge, the lawyer and the therapist.

First up we have Australian Judge Sarah Bradley. Her case involved a 10 year old girl who was gang raped by 9 men. The prosecuting attorney described the rape as

"a form of childish experimentation, rather than one child being prevailed upon by another" and said the males including a 17, 18 and 26-year-old, were "naughty".

And Her Honor based her judgment on her own opinion that the girl

"probably agreed to have sex with all of the offenders"

This ten year old child had previously been molested multiple times AND she contracted a venereal disease during this encounter. She was subsequently removed from her foster family and returned to the community where all her victimizations had occured and in which her victimizers lived within their prestigious and now obviously influental families.

With this decision, Judge Bradley told this girl she was unimportant. That what these men did to her was just something she would have to accept. Every single one of the rapists pleaded guilty. Every single one of them received a slap on the wrist except for 6 of them who received........nothing.

Kea of GirlChat said:

"i'm not saying what happened to that girl is ok, i'm saying that holding a bunch of scared aboriginal kids up in front of australian society and accusing them of 'gang raping a ten year old girl' is a sad and pathetic response.

they aren't responsible for her, or their own situation, and sending them to jail will probably kill them"

He then went on to explain that in the Aboriginal culture it's not unusual for adults to have sex with children. And the pedofreaks bought it. Even Moth.

It reminded me of THIS story. Horrifying in itself, the reactions from the pedo community were mind boggling.


Next we have the case of Philip Russell. A Connecticut attorney who accepted the case of the music director at his church. Church officials had discovered child pornography on Robert Tate's laptop computer. The church, a prominent church, "didn't want a scandal. They wanted it to go away", according to Mr. Russell.

Mr. Russell acted swiftly. He took a sledgehammer and beat the hell out of that laptop, thus destroying the evidence and enabling Mr. Tate.

Mr. Tate had done a lot more than possess child pornography of young boys, some of it sadistic in nature. Regarding Robert Tate, Judge Alan Nevas said he had "never, ever seen such a sexual abuse history as Mr. Tate's, going back 30 years, involving trips overseas, and bringing child prostitutes to the parish and church grounds". Nevertheless, Mr. Russell who could have received 3 years in prison for his part, instead was given 1 year probation, 6 months of home confinement, a $25,000 fine and 240 hours of community service. He can reapply for his license after a period of one year. Hopefully the scumbag will be disbarred.

As for Mr. Tate? He plead guilty to possession of child pornography and will be sentenced on January 31. No one seems to know why he's only charged with CP. Perhaps it's the good ol' boy system operating in Connecticut. Mr. Russell says that he's "very relieved and happy" that the case is behind him. But what about those boys in those images? Who are they? What about those boys in Mr. Tate's extensive baby raping history?


Niki Delson is a therapist. Her clients include sex offenders. Her clients also include child sexual abuse victims. Niki is a pro-pedophile, pro sex offender activist. While Niki's peers are publishing in professional journals, Niki is publishing in the American Chronicle. I bet she leaves that off her resume though, ya think?

Niki believes that it's natural and quite normal for adults to be sexually attracted to sexually immature, sexually undeveloped prepubescent children. To back up her claim, she quotes a study by Briere, which we talked about HERE and which has been proven to be biased and purposefully deceptive.

Insanity, a legal term, may be used to defend criminal behavior if the person did not understand that what they were doing was illegal. Being mentally ill does not mean that one is insane, however. And while experts agree that mental illness which effects a persons behavior - if not curable, is treatable, while the alternative - EVIL - is not. The best you can hope for with someone who is just plain evil is behavior modification, a tortuously long process with a poor success rate. And it's easy to see why.

And yet Niki's partner Ron Kokish teaches the exact opposite, he says it's best to be evil because, well you could simply change your behavior.

"Simply put, adult sexual attraction to children is normal. It's part of biological sexuality"

"Sexual offenses are not essentially different from other cruel and selfish acts. When we pretend they are, we are simply trying to avoid acceptance of our own nature, we are barking up the wrong tree, and we are making the situation worse"

Niki, besides being the Media Director and a member of the Strategic Planning Committee of the California Coalition on Sexual Offending, is deeply involved in activism. Writing propaganda in the same style as the other blame gamers on the tabloid site American Chronicle, blogs, forums and news sites, we see her twisting statistics and studies and showing up in strange places like the eAdvocate website, SoClear Media Productions, Martijn of the Netherlands Political Pedophile Party, the Reform Sex Offender Laws Petition website, MySpace, Nigel Oldfields website, Zman's blog and the yahoo group belonging to Erika the Mouse.

Niki is an activist for sex offenders, she advocates for less restrictions, no registry, and no notification. Niki believes that pedophilia is normal. Niki is counseling sex offenders, feeding into their cognitive distortions. Niki is counseling children who have been sexually abused by the pedophiles she believes are normal. There is something not quite right with this picture.

I wonder what she would think of the pedophile Jason. I wonder what she would tell him when he said:

Masturbation has no known harmful effects on an otherwise healthy child. Even if a child were forcibly masturbated against his/her will, any harm would be minimal and quickly overcome if parents and the law took a sensible attitude toward the "assault"

Even where a child is truly forced and protests against being masturbated, any ill effects would be virtually eliminated if society would only get rid of the current sexual hysteria

I'll leave you with some thoughts from another professional who treats sex offenders. He doesn't sound at all like Niki to me. Can't you just hear her now? "I am Niki D of the American Chronicle". No they don't sound anything alike and sometimes common sense alone will tell you what's the truth and what's a lie, so let's meet Dr. Bill Glaser:

• There are some who say that we are becoming unnecessarily panicky about child sexual abuse. The evidence is that we have not panicked enough.


• If we had some sort of plague or epidemic which affected one in four girls, one in eight boys, there would be a national outcry about it and we would be setting up national coordinated efforts to deal with the problem as we have with modern day epidemics such as HIV.


• Despite the implications of its Greek etymology, paedophilia is not a love of children but a lust for them. The sole aim of the paedophile is to sexually abuse children. Any display of care, affection or friendship towards the victim is always secondary to this.


• It has often been said that paedophiles tend to be “good with children”. That is precisely what makes them so dangerous; this “goodness”is difficult to differentiate from (say)“good” parenting. One has to talk with many victims at length to realise how insidious and how overwhelming has been the influence of an offender on all aspects of their lives.


• An incest offender is simply a paedophile who sometimes abuses his own children or young relatives.


• And most of all,we have to understand the how and the why of paedophilia: the subtle, bizarre and cruel ways in which seemingly blameless and upright men insidiously cripple the most vulnerable members of our society. We have possessed that understanding for a long time; we have ignored it for too long.


• The measure of successful treatment is not that of a happy perpetrator but rather of a safe victim.

Graphics courtesy of Jacey

Pedophiles!

Pedophile! Is there an uglier word in the English language that you know of? Pedophile! There is nothing worse you could call someone than a pedophile. Once someone is known as a pedophile all other possible insults go out the window. I think of them as slugs. Those slithery, slimy disgusting creatures. The only living thing on earth that serves no known purpose is a slug.....and a pedophile.

Pedophiles try to legitimize their perversion by calling themselves child lovers. Boy lovers or girl lovers for those 'exclusively' attracted. Some prefer the term minor attracted adult. MAA. They don't particularly like the term baby raper. They prefer intergenerational sex, as though softening the sound of it will improve their reputations.

We need to never, ever use those words. They are pedophiles! They are child molesters, baby rapers, soul thieves, manipulators, liars, pedovores and pedofreaks. They are freakopaths, creepazoids, monsters, predators and destroyers of children. Pedophiles are many many things, but there's one thing they're not and that's child lovers.

There was a case not long ago that got my attention. A man caught emailing a video. The video was of a young girl being sodomized. She was screaming. My first thought was of that poor child and what she went through. My next thought was that it had been captured on video. And it was being shared. Traded, emailed, spread around like a funny joke that people share. Why? Because there are men who get their sexual thrills by looking at it. They LIKE it. Nigel Leigh Oldfield aka WM Critest, he likes it. He would defend anyones right to look at it. And he does.

The cruel, senseless nature of perverts like Nigel Oldfield isn't deserving of euphemisms. There's no sugar coating what happened to the children pictured in the photos, he enjoyed. There's no sugar coating for the children which have to live with what happened to them for the rest of their lives. No matter what name pedophiles want to give themselves, here at Absolute Zero they will always be regarded as Child Molesters, Baby Rapers and Perverts.

Alfred Kinsey, Scientist or Baby Raper?

Concerning Steve Diamond, his wiki says:

Diamond is very cocky and full of himself. He believes he has been through all the hardships life has to offer, and therefore everyone needs to listen to what he says.

For those that don't remember him, Steve's the guy that had so many blogs hijacked by Rez from Acme Cleaning Services. Rez hijacked his blog, Stevie boy started another one and Rez promptly hijacked that one, etc. Some of his blogs only lasted mere hours. Steve is a pedophile. He's a boyhater. He's a pervert, and a stupid one at that. Why just today on BoyChat, a haven for the cognitively distorted, Steve proves once again his stupidity. He quoted Dr. Judith Reisman as saying:

"For his wholly unscientific sex experiments on at least 317 children, Kinsey’s pederast team used stopwatches to record their little victims,’ “convulsions” and “hysterical weeping (especially among the younger children)” and “striking” the [adult] “partner” who was violently sodomizing the child. Kinsey testified these torturous cries of terror were “orgasms” that the babies enjoyed."

Well what's wrong with that, you may ask. Nothing. Nothing at all. But what is wrong is what Steve had to say about it.

• she makes it sound like hundreds of infants were being tortured
• Is this woman delusional?...
• she litters her essay with very emotion laden terminologies
• she crosses the line with this behavior, to an obscene extreme
• This is a cheap, low handed tactic, for which people like her are considered infamous
• This has fundamentalist, extremest written all over it
• those sorts are in utter lack of objectivity
• They don't see clearly enough, to have the ability to make any sort of sound judgement
• This is clearly somebody who already had their thoughts set in stone, right from the beginning...and she ran to whatever sources she could find that would back up her own bigotry...and, of course...there are many bigots like her, in this field.
• A fine example of a moral imperialist, and a moral elitist, if ever there was one

Here's your answer Stevie boy Diamond. You quoted Dr. Reisman's words, but in your haste to look like an idiot.....you didn't realize that she was quoting Kinsey himself. Those words were his words. Those descriptions were his descriptions. He was the radical, he was the nonobjective one, he was the one unable to see clearly enough to make a sound judgment, he was the cheap, low handed, bigoted obscene extremist. So why don't YOU get YOUR facts straight first, eh Stevie? It seems to me that it is you who is clueless, not Dr. Reisman

Originally posted July 20, 2006:

As you may know Alfred Kinsey is considered The Father of the Sexual Revolution. His infamous publications Sexual Behavior in the Human Male 1948, and Sexual Behavior in the Human Female 1953 are directly linked to the current attitude Anything Goes.

These publications have created change in our legal system, our educational system, penal system, health care system, and societal values and mores.

His reports are widely quoted by pedophiles and those seeking abolishment of age of consent laws. However, most of us don't really know much about those reports or the far reaching effect they've had on all of our lives.

While I had intended giving you a thorough report about him, there is simply too much information out there to include here on a blog entry. So instead I'll give you a few brief facts. Enough so that you will know to dismiss pedofreaks claims with reference to Kinsey's work.

• Much of his data was retrieved from the diaries of convicted child molesters
  
• Much of his data was retrieved from a Nazi's experiments on Jewish children during WWII
  
• 25-48% of his subjects were in prison and/or deviant males, of which 1400 were classified as sex offenders.
  
• 'Married' women included prostitutes (as long as they lived with a pimp)
  
• Much of his 'scientific' data came from pedophiles, not 'technically trained' experts as he claimed.

In 1979, after Alfred Kinsey died, Paul Gebhard his co-author and the Director of the Kinsey Institute, released some of the data used, its quite impressive, if you know what I mean.

Gebhard revealed that of the 18,000 interviews, 5,300 white males accounted for the research base in the Male Volume; of that 5,300, 2,446 were designated as convicts, 1,003 homosexuals, 50 transvestites, 117 mentally ill, 342 “Other,” 650 sexually abused boys. This yielded 4,628 n=Aberrant and 873 n=“Normal” Male subjects.
NIMH Grant The Kinsey Data; Marginal Tabulations, 1979, p. 3. -6

In Chapter 5 of Kinsey's Male volume, he reports his findings on child orgasms. His famous Table 34 gives the age of the child (a total of 317 children experimented on) ranging in age from 2 months to 14 years. He has documented the number of orgasms that he was able to illicit from them and the time it took to achieve them, measured on a stop watch. The results are appalling, including an 11 month old, 7 orgasms reported in 9 minutes. A 2.5 year old, 4 recorded in 2 minutes. A 13 year old, 3 recorded in 70 seconds. And on and on and on.

But how did they measure those orgasms on those young babies and toddlers we might wonder. From Sexual Behavior in the Human Male pp160-161

Orgasm was defined as follows:

"Extreme tension with violent convulsions: ...sudden heaving and jerking of the whole body... gasping... hands grasping, mouth distorted, sometimes with tongue protruding; whole body or parts of it spasmodically twitching...violent jerking of the penis...groaning, sobbing, or more violent cries, sometimes with an abundance of tears (especially among younger children).... hysterical laughing, talking, sadistic or masochistic reactions... extreme trembling, collapse, loss of color, and sometimes fainting of subject.... some...suffer excruciating pain and may scream ...if the penis is even touched....some...before the arrival of orgasm, will fight away from the partner and may make violent attempts to avoid climax although they derive definite pleasure from the situation."

Need I really say anything else about Kinsey?

In Your World

What would you want?

I would ask that AZ staff please kindly refrain from censoring comments solicited by this post's question.

I would like to allow any and all comments to this post, "in the clear."

To wit:

In your world, as a respondent or commentor on AZ, frequent, infrequent, censored, allowed, what is it that you would like our world to reflect in regards to your inclinations toward children and young adults?

In your ideal world, what would that be like?

Free of rules, regulations, laws, what is it that you would embrace?

Now is your time to speak, to write, to make your thoughts and inclinations obvious, free, clear and timely.

BZ

Pedophile Pamphlets

The pedophiles at girl chat are discussing making pamphlets to hand out to people. These pamphlets are supposed to "educate" us (society) that pedophiles are "safe", "child lovers" and "no threat to children".
http://annabelleigh.net/messages/422863.htm


Awwww pedophiles are people too. Boo hoo pedoheads are so misunderstood (as Rob would say...)

YEAH RIGHT!

Pedophiles we got your number. We know you.

In this fight to gain acceptance, pedophiles forget that Children are people too!
Children deserve the right NOT to be abused, NOT to be sexualized and NOT to be exploited.
Children deserve the right NOT to grow up with a pedophile friend or family member using them for sex or masturbatory material.

Pedophiles want us to accept them in their lust and in their mental illness that is untreated and want us to agree that their mental illness is a sexual orientation. NOPE we won't!
Pedophiles want us to embrace them in their deviance and accept the fact that they look at children as sexual objects. NOPE we never will!

Here is some food for thought. While you think about pedophiles handing out pamphlets filled with lies about how they never would have sex with children here are some screen shots saying otherwise.

Last year a pedophile started a poll at Visions of Alice asking pedoheads if they would have sex with a little girl...people are still answering it. Here are a lot of their answers:




Oh yes if they had the chance.








This pedophile asks "what are you considering a child?"




WARNING!! The following screen shot is graphic and could cause flashbacks and or emotional trauma!


More yes answers....

This guy thinks bestiality is more worse than child molestation.































































































































No matter what a pedophile says to the public, in a flyer, or in a newspaper article, on TV, or a radio show it is all lies. They want to have sex with children in one way or another.

The truth is that pedophiles are willing to lie and deceive society and whom ever they can so they can further their agenda. Their agenda is and always will be to have sex with children.

Politics And Pederasty

In my portion of the Left Coast of America, a San Francisco bay area talk show host, Bernie Ward, was indicted for child porn:

SAN FRANCISCO (Map, News) - San Francisco radio talk show host Bernie Ward has been indicted by a federal grand jury on charges of using the Internet to send and receive child pornography, his lawyer said today.

The indictment is under seal, but the charges were confirmed by Ward's lawyer, Doron Weinberg, and by his employer, KGO radio.

Weinberg said Ward, 56, pleaded not guilty to the indictment before a federal magistrate in San Francisco today.

Ward is a "famous" Left Wing talk show host in quite liberal San Francisco, a former Catholic Franciscan priest, whose attorney says:

Weinberg said the case stems from an "error of judgment" Ward made when he spent a few days in 2004 looking at pornography images and exchanging images with other adults when doing research for a book on hypocrisy.

As SNL's Church Lady once said: "Isn't that conveeeeeeeee-nient!"

Moreover, it's now political and the fault of President Bush -- who else?

If it looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, has child porn like a duck, is a former Catholic priest like a duck, what might one reasonably conclude? Politics? Or logic? Too far?

BZ