The Darkness Within

Alia Loren Jacobson
aka
Poisontears

Her website describes her this way:

"As the recently crowned Princess of the Night, Alia is intrigued by beauty found within the macabre, and intends to show a generation of gothlings just how intensely exquisite the darkness within the soul can be."

What's the first thing people think when they see her I wonder.

Take that thought, whatever it might be and add the fact that she's a pedophile and attracted to prepubescent little girls. And sometimes boys. Never adults.

Add to that her interest in necrophilia. The interest she says she tries to keep suppressed.

Ready? Now add the fact that unlike the other pedophiles she doesn't even try to disguise herself as a "girl lover" - No she says it straight out -

"i'm not even sure if i can truly consider myself to be a girllover--after all, most of my fantasies are purely physical and include hurting little girls. there is no way that can be considered girllove."

Does this concern you?

When Alia was in college she confessed her desires to a friend. This friend reported Alia and she was forced to undergo a psychiatric evaluation. Alia's parents told her not to "tell too much" and shortly Alia returned to GirlChat to say she had been deemed "not dangerous to children" but admitted that they don't really know the full extent of her deranged views.

I'd like to consider for a moment what WE - we meaning people who don't want to have sex with children - we who don't want to make children scream - would do, what would we say to someone like this? Someone who wasn't a stranger but a long-time member of the group? What if they said this to you

"Sometimes when i'm walking and i see someone boy or girl who i think is beautiful the first thing that comes through my mind is how erotic it would be to hurt them....."

So? What would you say? What would you do? Let's look at what GirlChat members said to her. She's been there for EIGHT years, I'd be guessing that her desire isn't going away anytime soon wouldn't you? This is how the "Girl lovers" aka child haters responded when Alia said:

What am I? Where should I go? Help me!

I don’t know how to transfer my desire to strangle into a desire to cuddle

T3hl33tg33k:

You can talk to me

I think we might have similar feelings

Minstrel:

I strongly advise against 'professional help' as being completely useless for any problems you might have. If you tell a shrink you're attracted to girls, you're already doomed, even without mentioning violent fantasies. I don't see the point in throwing your life away

So, where should you go? I suggest Girl Chat Chat.

Dissident:

fantasies are just a way to let off steam for your inner frustrations. However, I don't think it's particularly healthy to NEVER think about cuddling and gentle imagery and to ALWAYS think about abusive behavior in your fantasies. A healthy dosage of both is better than just one type of fantasizing exclusively, IMO

You seem like a pleasant enough person, Poison

BB:

What I would guess is that you've never actually been able to have a close relationship with a LG. If you did, I strongly suspect that you would find the comfort you're seeking in the warm, soft, comforting arms of a LG. If you had the opportunity to really be with a girl, you would find that violence is the furthest thing from your mind.

T3hl33tg33k:

Wait a minute, you have a vagina!
Rape away, then! People will be thanking you for it.

Blue Heaven:

Accept the problem and let it go, but don't encourage it, and don't deny it. Just let it be. If you're a good person otherwise, then hold true to that.

Razor1911:

i refuse to blame sex offenders that actually kidnap a child and do something about it

Whatever happens is the pedophobes' fault.

For example, the person that technically did it should receive one year in prison while the pedophobic therapists and their accomplices in society should be slowly beaten to death. They are child killers, pulling the strings from a good distance while we erreneously focus, with a perspective that is far too small, on the single person that has his strings pulled.

BB:

Yes, the Antis are responsible for creating the monsters that they hate, but those monsters still have free will.

I will concede, however, that if all the Antis died, there be virtually no crimes against children anymore.

LGSoul:

As long as you seperate fantasy from reality and maintain your self-control you should have no problem. Or maybe if you feel its best just stay away from little girls. Or (if you live in the USA) you could masturbate to violent lolicon. To sexually relieve yourself.

THAT is the truth about GirlChat. Their entire existence is nothing more than denial, rationalizations and LIES. They lie to society, they lie to the Anti's, they lie to each other and they lie to themselves. They HAVE to, the truth might make them scream.

Knowing how they fed into the disturbed and demented mind of Alia Jacobson, I wonder what they would say if she did what Melissa Huckaby did? I don't think that is too far-fetched of a question to ask, especially when they've been wondering if Melissa could possibly be a member of one of their pedo-sites. Hopefully we'll never have to discover that answer considering they won't discuss their own members who commit crimes and go to prison for life. However, we CAN see what they had to say about the woman accused of sexually assaulting and murdering Sandra Cantu.

Trucker refers to Melissa Huckaby:

I feel more pity for her than sweet little Sandra; at least Sandra's in LG heaven while the rest of the world has to fight through this hellish life.

I hope the antis are damn skippy over the atmosphere they created. If there was more understanding than hating maybe Sandra would still be alive.

Iron Marxist:

If she was a member of the MAA community then she has even less of an excuse for doing what she did because that would mean that she felt love for little girls. Maybe she was constantly told all her life that she was an evil monster who was destined to hurt kids and she finally broke under the pressure.

But when any one of us allows society to break us and does something stupid and savagely cruel, not only does an innocent child and her family suffer but so does the entire MAA community. I just hope that when Sandra's Law is passed we don't end up losing forums like GC, because these forums help to prevent any of us from acting out in negative ways.

MimzyBorogrove:

You really want to know who killed Sandra Cantu? I'll tell you. It was you, I, and everyone else who has ever turned an unseeing eye or an uncaring heart to another's plight (or our own, for that matter.) Anyone who has taken profit from another's suffering, whether direct or not. Those among us who watch the darkness descending, who cry out for the dying of the light, yet, can't seem to break out of our molds enough to say "Enough is enough." We did it. We killed that little girl, as surely as if we had been standing there. And only by taking responsibility for all of this, can we ever hope to change ANY of it.

Trucker:

I don't care if I get heat for this but I can't stand how the U.S. just coddles and overprotects children just to keep them "innocent."

So a suspect in Sandra Cantu's murder has been caught. Notice how quickly the police got someone, not because a person was murdered, but because a "sweet, innocent little girl" was murdered. Is the concept of innocence worth the price of depriving possibly innocent people of freedom and riling paranoia?

Are children so helpless and ignorant that they must be given special attention whenever one gets killed every two years?

Until this bogus "innocence" stigma is done away with and children are seen as equals with adults, we will never be one unified people.

That's the brand of distorted crap Alia has heard for eight years. Alia, a woman fighting urges to "kill and rape and maim" receiving responses that

• it's just OCD
• it's normal to think that way
• she's really a nice person
• hold true to herself
  
• find violent lolicon to further feed the fantasies
• find a little girl to love

But if she does act out and hurts a child........then it's the fault of people who don't want her to molest their children.

So I ask you - if it were legal for adults to have sex with children, what do you think Alia Loren Jacobson would do?

"....I guess i have always sympathized too much with people who commit horrendous crimes because every so often i myself have to sit down and solemnly swear to myself that i will never murder anyone."

--poisontears
GirlChat 2003

Get over it pedophiles!

This Thrivers message is brought to you by AZUBrd and
Violet Leaves.







Febri-chan
the liar who says things like...
"Get over it.
You think you've suffered pains and sadness in your lives? Gimme a break!
There are people who "survive" far worse than you could dream of and they really survive and truly "thrive".

Get over it? Why don't you get over it?
Your right! We are thriving very well indeed!

What Febri-Chan is telling us Thrivers is that we are liars because we don't write
every single detail of our abuse. Why does he want all the details?
This perverted pedophile wants to judge us, and then masturbate to our life history!
Pedophiles are sick perverted filthy people! These details are what they live for!
I won't allow that.

No one in their right minds would want to read details even CyberTipline Police must have a good vomit every now and then.
No one wants to read it... except a child hater like Febri-Chan and others. Many others.
All confessed pedophiles and *child lovers*.

Then we have the fat convicted sex offender, admitted CP collector
Trucker.

I bet he hasn't lost one single ounce of fat off his bones.
I imagine him being too busy eating big macs and downloading child porn from anywhere he can in desperation because he
has all day to drive the truck and think nasty sick thoughts about our children.
Thoughts only a child porn addict would think.. thoughts that you and I would vomit at.

To you pissed of pedoheads, we must have struck of nerve, to say we are liars!
Yes... you hate us, and try to debate us, but our truth can never be silenced!!
We are here to shout it out to the wrold!
These sick men like Febri-Chan and Trucker are wanting our nations little children!
No longer will we allow them to dismiss our pain for their own gain!

We call you out here and now slimebags!
Molesters! Child Pornographers!
Your life will NEVER be the same!

Watch as Absolute Zero United takes you down one by one!

Trucker and nigel want to say we are embarrassing and disgracing every abuse
victim with our phony stories. Now isn't that just like two pissed off pedoheads to say such a thing?

The fact that Nigel is nuts and has NEVER proven a thing!
Nigel has tried to taunt us, force us and manipulate us.
Nigel has lied constantly and distorted the truth because he has a severely distorted reality!

...so in closing Trucker better start saving!! After all he said "I'll bet a year's worth of flatbed runs up to Northern Canada from down in the South that if they exposed themselves they'd be just a bunch of silly nerds who work at Taco Hell".

Trucker says ~ TOOT TOOT ~ Pedos Unite!

We've talked a lot lately about registered sex offender activists and how they all talk out both sides of their mouth.

On the one hand they say there's a difference in types of offenders and the law should recognize that, on the other hand Jackie Sparling the COO of SoClear Media Production says

"whether you or your loved one was charged with CP, got caught in a Romeo/Juliet type situation, or was charged with sexual assault/rape doesn't even come into play with our organization"

They also say that child molesters shouldn't be treated as criminals, they should be given treatment instead. Treatment which has proven to have a very poor overall success rate, I might add. Let's look at a perfect example of that.


Trucker of GirlChat has been trying really hard to get our attention lately. He wants all Pedos to UNITE!

He very helpfully encourages the pedoheads, he says

TOOT TOOT!

And sometimes he says

WOOT WOOT!

But mostly what he says is pedocrap, as we shall see.

You see, Trucker says he spent 3 years in a prison for sexually violent predators. He says he spent 5 years in sex offender treatment. He says he had an addiction to child pornography. He says he realizes he did it out of lust for little girls rather than love. So now, after completing his treatment - which he says included chemical castration, among other things - here he is on GirlChat plotting and planning and UNDOING all his treatment.

"I'm here to have most of that treatment undone because I never really believed that being in relationships with children is a horrible thing."

Trucker had this to say about the Sex Offender Treatment Program:

SOTPs are extremely ineffective in reducing recidivism, and actually cause it in some cases

I remember being in an outpatient SOTP, and in just two months there were four guys out of eight in my group session who were violated by their POs for legitimate sex crimes

many sex offenders do not want to be treated. They feel they've done nothing wrong, despite the severity of the crime

there's something inside of me that refuses to allow me to reject my pedophilia. I know there is something better for us than child abuse or persecution through law and therapy because I believe that everyone has the right to be sexual, regardless of race or age. I would like the law and therapists to see that someday and work with us to really reduce child sexual abuse.

He also makes the same sort of statement we've seen the likes of Shirley Lowery and other SOSEN and Roar4Freedom members make regarding child pornography

"Has anyone been murdered in the production and distribution? Sure children may have been abused, but abuse can be overcome if one doesn't allow both the abuse and the abuser to have sway over the rest of one's life"

That is a rationalization. Yes it may be abuse.....BUT there's worse things that could happen. Sound familiar? I sincerely don't believe that GirlChat would be approved as therapeutic for this crazed registered sex offender known as Trucker. He is a ticking time bomb. And it just so happens that he is also a bright and shining example of Pedophile! Pervert! Predator! Registered Sex Offender!

Trucker wants ideas on how to make baby raping socially acceptable

"I see a major barrier in our movement being that society perceives children to be "innocent" and therefore must be shielded from "impure" acts such as sex. So how should children be made to be not as innocent as society deems them as?"

That wasn't very bright of Trucker. I also don't believe it was very smart of him to mock one of our Thrivers, Violet Leaves. In fact, it was downright stupid to call her the names he did. Violet and AZUBRD are living breathing surviving thriving witnesses to what pedophiles are, what they do, how they operate.

I understand you wanted some attention, Trucker.

"the reason why AZ and PJ won't post THEIR addresses or show their faces is because they'd have a big-rig through their homes the next day. There are plenty of truckers who'd love to tie those guys on both ends to the DOT bumpers and hit 10th gear. And nobody would ever find them again. I discovered that truckers can be like that if needed."

Trucker, you may hereby consider yourself ON NOTICE

Graphics courtesy of Jacey

Cruisin' for a Bruisin'

That's Jack McClellan I'm talking about. I think he has some sort of death wish. He lost his Seattle girl perving website for awhile. His parents gave him an ultimatum....."Open another website like that and you'll get out" Well......how could he pass that up?

Living on disability, with his parents, bringing them into the news and I'm sure making their life a living hell. Why would anyone think this was a man of character and integrity? Oh, he left Washington and headed to L.A. he says to take attention from his parents.......I suppose he's too ashamed to tell the real reason. Wouldn't you be?

So here he is a man who is dependent on somebody for money, and to somebody else for a roof over his head, and never mind the fact that he's practically spitting in his own family's face, yeah never mind that....but he also spits in the face of his pedo-brothers. He's defiant, he's outrageous, and he's out of control.

He says he's homeless, sleeping in his car. Oh BOO HOO. You can afford a website telling people where to find little girls to perv over can't you? Yep, he's going to be the new Lindsay Ashford alright. Obnoxious, arrogant, hated by 99.999% of the population and now begging for hand outs so he can keep his wheels a'movin. Hunting..........now he's in L.A. He can't work but he sure can drive all over the place attending children's events and photographing girls for ulterior motives. What did you say that disability was again, Jack? Hmmm?

Now while begging for scraps from the pedoheads he also lets them know he'll be on the Rick Roberts show in the morning.....again. I'm interested to know what they think about Jack continuously putting them in the spotlight.

Infinity:

You're asking for trouble jack.......I guarantee you Jack that nothing but bad comes out of this. Keep in mind you are representing this entire community now

Spike:

I don't get it, what possible good could this do you, us, and the greater GL movement?

Jack:

I'm hoping some GLs will try calling in (their number is 1-800-760-KFMB) -- so that the interview isn't just me versus Rick & the antis

Joey Bishop:

While I admire the bravery of those who would risk calling in with a pro-pedo opinion, I would once again remind them of the consequences, especially if they have dependants who rely on them(like Kevin Brown).

Student:

Right from the start, try to focus on the bigotry/discrimination/thought-crime angle. It's going to be hard to get that in, so the sooner you start trying, the better..........

He's going to try to focus on the idea that 'you and people like you want to have sex with the little kiddies.' Avoid that. When he goes there, the audience stops thinking and starts blindly hating. Please try to spend some time on the discrimination/bigotry/thought-crime angle.

Trucker:

BTW I think the Rick Roberts show is just a cover-up for his own repressed pedophilia, so you should call him on that. In fact, I suggest you be more aggressive and tell him he is spreading hate and fear with his attacks on pedophiles, and thus making himself to be an eventual suspect

We love ya man. Pedos unite.

Mojoe:

The community needs people to out themselves in a positive way (As you seem to do), so the world can see how normal we all are!

Arch:

Your goal is survival

Abraxas rears his head:

Hold your own, pal

I think Abraxas doesn't know when to hush uppa his mouth. See here he gives Jack some tips on who to call regarding shelter. But then Abraxas knows a lot about poverty and how to get by. Why, once upon a time he even had a plan for a young boy to support his entire family and all he had to do.....

"There are lots of families out there struggling to survive financially. Many of these are families with boys

So let's say a boy in a struggling family offers his services five times a day. 5 Head Jobs x $20.00 each = $100 per day. Say he takes Sundays off, that's still 6 Days a Week x $100.00 = $600.00 per week. That's a cool $31,200.00 per year. Any family could use that. Even better for families with more than one boy.

1. The sex is safe. Getting a head job has almost zero risk.
2. The sex is financially lucrative.
3. The sex is pleasurable.
4. The boy is sexually satisfied, no danger of his getting his girlfriend pregnant.

There is no down side.

This is just an idea"


Like I said, some people don't know when to stop talking. They won't control themselves and they won't control their own community. So ya know, they shouldn't complain when someone else has to do it for them. Although Abraxas does dream of living in an underdeveloped country, and Lindsay is running for his life......perhaps that's the type of advice you guys should be giving him instead?

"How to live on the run out of a suitcase begging for dollars from message boards"

Now that would be interesting to watch.

Can you just imagine what society would be like if men like these......with ideas like these ran the world?

Lindsay Slipped ~ Oops

Is anyone here aware of the new effort against Lindsay Ashford? Petra Luna is calling for search engines to de-list Lindsay. (Hey Lindsay, here's a clue.....they can). Petra went on KTRH Newsradio and was interviewed by Scott Braddock concerning this effort. You can listen to it HERE

Scott also interviewed Lindsay. You can listen to it at the same location....if you can stomach it. It was mostly just more of the same old nauseating drivel that emanates from the words and writings of this sick twisted sissy-man. But there were a few things from the interview that I wanted to make note of. Let's start here:

Scott: Do you think that children who have any type of sex with adults grow up to be well adjusted?

Lindsay: I think that some do.

Scott: Do you know of any?

Lindsay: I know of people who had sexual encounters when they were elementary school age children.

Scott: And you think they're alright?

Lindsay: I think they're fine.

Let's stop there and first look at his one-time partner Todd Nickerson. Todd was molested as a small boy, I believe it was a fondling episode. To this day he can't come to terms with it. "Did the man care for me?" He still asks himself. Well, Todd, I'm sorry to say, that no, no the man did not care for you. He merely groped you, that's what perverts do. When you go on one of your rants, when you're confused and tormented by it.......you are asking the wrong people for advice when you go to GirlChat for answers. They are perverts! What do you expect? Perhaps you should try writing a survivor letter to your abuser instead.

As for Lindsay, he failed to tell Scott Braddock that he himself was molested by his babysitter when he was 4 years old. He failed to tell Scott about how he never told anyone, how it tormented him and he thought of it as a trauma, how screwed up it made him when he was going through puberty. He failed to tell Scott about his multiple suicide attempts and his bipolar disorder. His multiple hospitalizations in mental institutions and how he is still not alright to this very day. Yeah he left off that part. But, moving on....

Scott: So there should be no laws regarding people who for example do what most people consider to be molestation of children?

Lindsay: I think that there should be laws against any form of sexual contact which are obtained by force, coercion,manipulation or deception.

What? Lindsay agrees! There should be no deception! Then what do you call all that rubbish on your website, Lindsay? All those twisted and skewed academic articles? The twisting of Ken Lanning for example, and gosh darn even the DOJ report, you've screwed that up too! How do you explain the ethics behind manipulation of facts for the purpose of deceiving people, which is in turn to create some sort of change of opinion about you and yours?

How do you explain your actions? That's not honesty.....so why would you feel people should take what you say seriously and believe you when you say that you wouldn't harm a child under any circumstances when your entire website is a purposeful misrepresentation? Why should they believe you when you say that a child who was abused wasn't really abused? Or when you say your website is not hosted in the Evil Empire then try to claim free speech protection under the American Constitution? Why should they trust you to be a fine, up-standing man when you post what you know to be a form letter from StC....which they rescinded...and you leave it there when they request it be removed and your sole purpose is to deceive people into believing that StC endorses you?

Why should they feel anything other than repugnance when they see you mock society....or children who were abused, or murdered? You are a walking, talking, breathing LIE, Lindsay Ashford. You are dishonest, unethical, calculating, malicious, and unconscionable. But there's more:

Lindsay: I think that so long as there is consent and respect that children should be allowed to....

Scott: Do you think that a 5 year old grasps what's going on well enough to be able to consent to sexual activity?

Lindsay: A 5 year old understands friendship. A 5 year old understands affection.

Scott: So can a 2 year old?

Lindsay: A 2 year old understands pleasure.

Scott: So they can consent to sex?

Lindsay: They can consent to pleasurable activity

Scott: Can a 6 month old do that?

Lindsay: I'm sure that 6 months old also have nerve endings and understanding and an understanding of what is pleasurable to them, yes

Scott: So a 6 month old can consent to sex

Lindsay: A 6 month old can consent to activity that it finds pleasurable

Scott: And so you don't understand why you get death threats?

There you have it. A condensed version, but if you can bear it go listen to the entire thing. Let's see what the girl chatters had to say about their hero

Hayaku: She should get the hell of the internet. The last frontier of free speech, and a very exciting one, and a bunch of mentally ill christofascist bitches with nothing better to do than make stupid petitions and complaints try and spoil it all.

albertross: lindsay - you hit every ball home - i could almost believe your interviewer was feeding you lines from a script - he was classic, and you walked him smack into every wall on the court. well played, sir - absolutely impeccable.

Was he listening to the same interview I was??

Elminster: You're my fucking hero, dude! You have balls the size of Jupiter!

Student: Aside from being articulate, you have a delightful accent, man.

LOL, read more about that here.

"The Brits are really surprised when I say I'm
American, because my accent is really good, so
I'd say that I'm the second American who can pull it off."

For the record, he's from San Francisco and if you listen carefully you'll hear him slip sometimes when he's talking. Some things you can only fake for so long, in fact he did it in this interview.

Student: That 6-month-old baby he threw at you was uncalled for. I suppose he was just trying to trip you up and test you for consistency, but it certainly drove down the amount of rational thought going on in his listening audience, which was already pretty low. Lindsay, you have Balls of Titanium

Hierophant: I was almost in tears luaghing at the Texas radio host.

Trucker: TOOT TOOT!!! (NT)

Hayaku: More nutjobs that make no sense fighting us. Makes us look like the smart ones.

SUNDAYS AND CYBELE: cant wait for judgement day and the 2nd coming. BURN ANTI'S BURN!

Febri-chan: God bless puellula and Mr. Ashford until and beyond the end of the world!

Norbert: Who made a better case?

LOL I believe that was a rhetorical question.

A Parent's Worst Nightmare

"You are a parent's worst nightmare. You are one nightmare that I'm going to put to rest today."


Judge Chet Tharpe said as he sentenced Steven Schurgard to 85 years in prison.


Steven's father had reportedly turned his son in for his illegal acts back in 2002 after Steven threatened to kill his father. Apparently he had an anger management problem. But he had more problems than that, much more.

When Temple Terrace police went to serve Schurgard, the man who test drove cars for work and lived with his mother answered the door with a gun tucked in the waist of his pants. He threatened police and told them he had child pornography on his computer. Police returned with a search warrant and seized Schurgard's computer and a cache of video and cassette tapes.

Though 617 child porn images were found on Steven's computer, including video tapes of a teenage boy engaged in sex acts in the home Steven shared with his mother....rather than face a trial he plead guilty to three counts of promoting a sexual performance by a child, one count of lewd and lascivious conduct with a victim younger than 18 and five counts of possession of child pornography.

All that was left was to be sentenced by the judge. He could have received as little as 4 years.

Steven Schurgard, who once called himself "a full-fledged pedophile" on his Web site, told a judge Thursday that he was sorry for owning child pornography and filming a young man engaged in a sex act.

But when some of his videos Steven had made were played for the judge....Steven hummed along.

"No one else will ever do. I'm still in love with you."

Is it any wonder then that the judge threw the book at him? We should have more of this type of judicial responsibility, and not just at the arrogant, in-your-face attitude of those like Steven Schurgard.

Schurgard's open plea left the length of his sentence up to the judge. Tharpe watched a video of a 13-year-old boy whom Schurgard plied with video games, drugs and alcohol, then filmed performing sexual acts. He saw a sampling of the obscene images from the man's computer. He was also shown evidence that would not have been allowed at trial but could be used by the judge to determine character. One video, set to the music from Jaws, showed Schurgard peeking through his blinds at a boy playing outside. Another captured him giggling guiltily as he flipped through pictures of naked boys and showed off literature from the North American Man/Boy Love Association, of which he was a member.

The DA "He is the very epitome of what parents lay in bed at night worrying about."

The defense attorney: argued that the 13-year-old had been a willing participant

The judge: "The only regret I have is that I can only sentence you to 85 years"

Trucker: "I think he was just doing what all of us would do if these damn laws didn't force us to obey them. I know the law shouldn't be broken, but to give an honest, wonderful person like that life in prison, and knowing that he would never intentionally harm a child is just preposterous."

Albert Ross: "maybe steve just doesn't know the meaning of fear, but he still gets hero status in my book."

Let's look at what one of those videos were, shall we? Is this meant to instill fear in the hearts of parents? Is it meant to mock society? What the hell was he thinking when Steven Schurgard made this video and posted it on his website?? Norbert said it was meant to be humor. I, for one, am not laughing.